“I’m sorry, Mrs. Wojtanik”.
Words of comfort meant to heal,
only to steal the lasting memories
that now will never come.
“I’m so sorry”. Words to stab at
the heart and rendered her broken.
Twice in four years, toxemia her venom;
a powerful poison to suck her soul
from within. A boy. Another Handsome boy.
He was to be named Walter Joseph,
a tribute to her husband’s father, Walter,
and her own immigrant patriarch, Jozef.
Her first born; her first stillborn,
Joseph Walter’s life ended before it began
as well. A living hell for young parents
of promise and love; she almost went with him.
But after two successful live births,
another would-be child held hope,
but no one could have imagined the private
pain would reoccur. It was two days shy of her
own birthday. She felt the emptiness.
She felt the loss. And she felt more.
In nine months of anticipation, she had a sense;
an immense feeling of wonder this boy
provided. Potential and promise.
Her heart ached so. Words could not describe it.
Words were taken from her. Or maybe,
she had given her words for her son to use.
A chance to express what she could not say;
he would have shared with the world. An orator?
No, a composer. A poet. Yes. She had a sense.
He would have given his heart in metered rhyme.
His life would have been a living poem.
A poem of love for the mother that bore him,
and the father that could have taught him the beauty
of the art in which he could have excelled.
Now, people will never know, or grow in the
warmth of his heartfelt hearth of words.
They could never miss what they never had,
but she always will. “I’m sorry, Mrs. Wojtanik”
“I’m so sorry”.
(Poetic Asides prompt for Day 3 of the Poem-a-Day Challenge: Envision a life without you in it.)